I feel it’s something that is always there, something you’re born with that gets lost along the way, or stolen by others. Sometimes you have to dig deep to find it again. ~Amy Lee Tempest

Confidence has always been a challenge for me and sometimes still is (It’s called being human) for the longest time I’ve found it hard to believe that I could do most of the things I wanted to do.

I knew I wanted to start blogging but took years procrastinating about it and more years finding my voice

I wanted to start my own clothing brand but was terrified of failing.

I wanted to pursue being a songwriter but never thought my songs were good enough.

I would like to think that I’m not alone in these thoughts and maybe you can relate to the feeling of wanting to do something but scared to do so. Sometimes the thing that limits us in life is also the thing that can stop us from making a positive impact in the world. Working on my confidence has not only helped with how I see myself but also how I see the world.

 

New Hashtag Alert

I’ve added #ConfidenceEqualsMe to my Instagram arsenal. The hashtags represents moments of where we celebrate or acknowledge confidence. Use this for moments where you feel most happy, good about yourself or even someone around you.

#ConfidenceEqualsMe

#ConfidenceEqualsMe

#ConfidenceEqualsMe

#ConfidenceEqualsMe

Top: Primark / Denim Shorts: Dorothy Perkins/ Photographer : Aya Watanabe  /Make up: Olivia Salubi / Shoes: Aldo

Deep down I’m a jeans and shorts kinda girl – I felt super comfortable in these pair from Dorothy Perkins and the colour of the top really compliments my skin tone. Hello Summer!

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Can I be honest with you?  Like really honest? ….. I started blogging back in 2009. My Blog was called Sparkmarz, the name came from when I was 17. I use to call up this local radio station  called ‘Bless Fm’  and my radio name was ‘LadySparkz’, that name kinda stuck with me. Years later one of my university friends ( Hey Dani B!) gave me the nickname of Marz, thus came the birth of Sparkmarz.  Clearly it was a name like no other and I was super excited to welcome everyone into my world.

I started that blog with so much passion and enthusiasm but some how along the way I found myself getting lost. I started to compare myself to other bloggers, copying what they did and lost my voice and purpose in the process. It was a sad time and for the most part I felt like a failure (I lost my mojo). Soon after that my desire to blog faded away, blogging wasn’t fun any more and eventually I stopped. Creativ Junkie is not just a blog to me, its a daily reminder to always do what I love and passionate about; even when life gets in the way.
6 months life and blog goals - Creativ Junkie

 

I want the next months to be full of growth and new milestones, here’s to the next productive 6 months!

 

Quality VS Quantity 

I would rather take my time and post quality content that could help or inspire people, then post everyday for the sake of it. In the past I would put alot of pressure on myself to post everyday and before I knew it blogging felt more like a job than a passion Never again! What I know for sure is that quality content takes time and I need to allow myself to have time to let my creative juices flow.

 

Business Cards

New theme, new logo, new look – Business cards are long over due. Especially when I plan to attend press days and blogger events.

 

4 Social Media Platforms Only

I want to focus on the social media platforms that I get the most interactions from and grow following on there. Currently  that’s Pinterest,  TwitterInstagram & Facebook, this doesn’t mean I’ll forget about Youtube, Bloglovin & Snapchat (sparkmarz87 add me!) but moving forward I would rather work SMART than hard.

 

Posting Twice a week

Posting twice a week would give me enough time to research and share things that are worth talking about. The goal here is to be stress free because stress kills creativity!

 

Take More Photos

Using stock photo’s is great and everything but I have this fancy DSLR camera and hardly using it to its full potential. One of the things I really want to learn is creating flatlays photos…ahh exciting times ahead!

 

Open Shop

I’ve always wanted to create t-shirt line, I have spent the past 5 years researching and procrastinating about it. I made a promise to myself that  by the end of the year I will have everything ready for me to launch.

 

That’s about it for my 6 months goals, what are your goals?

 

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Ah yes the waiting game, it sometimes feels like you’re hitting your head against a brick wall and other times feels like you’re waiting for Jesus to come back. Either way the frustration of life is real! I’ve been here before, truth is we all can’t get a job straight away. Below are 10 things you can do while you wait.

 

Volunteer 

When someone suggested this to me I was like …‘Hold up, you want ME to work… for FREE?’, I never really understood the benefit of working and not getting paid for it (I had that ‘Employee’ mindset ).  Having Volunteered several times now I can genuinely say that its something I enjoy doing.  I have learnt a lot, made some amazing new friends and it has strengthen my belief in the cause even more. Volunteering is something that should be in everyone’s bucket list.

Pride In London - Creativ Junkie

 

Learn

It doesn’t matter if you have your Degrees’ or  a PHD or whatever fancy qualification. What I know for sure is that you can’t learn everything in school. So pick up a book, newspaper or study  an online courses and learn about the industry you’re applying for or considering in changing into. Furthermore I am a big advocate on reading books on personal development, I suggest that you think long and hard on your weaknesses or what areas you would like to improve on and pick up a book – You can thank me later *winkwink*

 

Start A Blog

It seems like everyone is starting a blog these days but hear me out. Starting a blog could help you in two ways;

  1. Living without a job is hard! Especially if you don’t have a comfy savings account or rich folks to fall back on. What better way to share you feelings during this time then your very own blog. Who knows you might gain a following and end up helping those who are going through the same thing.
  2. Blogs are a great way to showcase your passion and interest to the world. A lot of creatives use this as a platform to do exactly that. The secret sauce here is to always remember that its not always about you, so focus on creating content that could help you rather than stroke your ego.

10 things to do while waiting for a job - Creativ Junkie

 

Freelance

Experience is great and everything but let’s get real we need cash (like yesterday). As mentioned above, having a blog is a great to showcase your talent. Being a freelancer is kinda popular right now, when I tell people that’s what I do the first response is usually “that’s interesting” and want to know more.

 

Spend time with Family/Reconnecting with Friends

When we get busy we sometimes forget about spending time with loved ones. Some time we just need a moment to stop and think about what is actually important to us, time or money. I use to think that ‘Time is Money’ but we can’t buy more time. On the flip side we can spend more money to improve our health thus prolong life, however time can be used to make money. One of my favourite quotes is by Jim Rohn

“Time is our most valuable asset, yet we tend to waste it, kill it, and spend it rather than invest it.”

 

Network

In some cases its not what you know, its WHO you know. Employers are always looking for people they know they can trust and recommendations from colleagues and friends are the best way to do this. Networking with people in the industry or simply telling your friends what your looking for may lead to your the next opportunity – So make every conversation count!

 

Playing Video Games

Yeah I said it  – Video games! Do not rule it out unless you have attempted at least 5 games ( cause FIFA football is not for everyone). Depending on what kind of video game, you could learn a wide range of skills.

 

Travel

If you can then why not? your problem’s are still going to be there when you get back, just don’t break the bank when you do this. I went to Beijing earlier on this year, even though life took a left turn when I got back I still don’t regret going. I made new friends and created memories that I will last a life time.

10 Things To Do While Waiting For A Job - Creativ Junkie

Beijing & Cancun Mexico

 

Make A Bucket List

My Birthday  is fast approaching and with that comes deep reflections about where I am with my life. In the past it was a depressing time as I would always focus on the negative like past failures. Being unemployed is another prefect opportunity to think about all the things you want to do and how the next job could help. I believe that with each new chapter we take should bring us a step closer to what we really want in life. So don’t let the next job be all about the money, because life is so much more than that!

 

Strengths & Passions

Making a list on what your good at and what your truly passionate about could help you find your dream job, especially in times when your not quite sure what your next job will be.

 

Waiting for a job can be stressful, so try to be as productive as you can. Use this time to think long and hard about your life, learn something new or even make new friends. Setting goals on how many jobs you can apply to DAILY not weekly – make it a daily habit.

 

Think positively – something good will come out of this! 

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Summer is almost here and I am super excited but first let me show my favourite dress. I titled this post ‘Grey is the new black’ because I like how flattering this dress is, almost as flattering as a black dress. I love this plus size dress, I brought this Grey marl jersey long sleeve bodycon dress with knot front from DP Curve Collection.

Grey is the new black - DP Curve - Creativ Junkie

Grey is the new black - DP Curve - Creativ Junkie

Grey is the new black - DP Curve - Creativ Junkie

Grey is the new black - DP Curve - Creativ Junkie

 

Dress: DP Curve Collection

Shoes: Primark

Photographer:  The amazing Aya Watanabe

Make up by The talented Olivia Salubi

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April has been an eye opener month for me, I learnt some lessons, travelled, Stepped out my comfort zone and made some new friends- It’s amazing what can happen in just one month! Below are my favourite moments.

 

April Highlights - Creativ Junkie


Comfort Zone

Can I be honest with you? I love being comfortable, infact its kinda like my thing. I’m a comfy kinda girl.  I’ll choose a pair of comfy trainers over heels any day!! But guess what? the best way to learn and grow is by stepping outside your comfort zone. Something I have heard my times but finally sunk in this month. You may not know this about me but I’ve started a new business in beauty, health and wellness. So in April I invited a few friends over for a fun night of trying out some products (Prosecco included *winkwink*). Sounds easy enough, right? Truth is the only thing I found easy was inviting people that was still getting to know rather than the people that already know me. Maybe because subconsciously I care more about what the people that already know me think rather than the people that don’t. I made a conscious decision to open up the invitation to everyone. Another thing that was challenging was presenting to a group of people, my day job is not public speaking so this was a bit daunting to say the least. Prior to this, I kept thinking what if I forget what I am supposed to say and mess up.  The true definition of courage is feeling scared but doing it anyway. April has reminded that the best way of learning is by doing!

Stepping outside your comfort zone - Creativ Junkie

 


Vegas

Yes I went Vegas baby!! I have always wanted to visit American but never thought the first time would be in Vegas. Ahh Vegas – the city of bright lights, casinos with no clock’s but plenty of oxygen and one strip that will leave you entertained for days. Although I went there on business /training, I still managed to have fun plus the food was amazing especially at Bubba Gump (the holy grail). I learnt so much from listening to some incredible leaders and my belief in myself has been taken to the next level because of it.

#GTC2016 - Creativ Junkie

 

Consistency

‘Consistency is like the secret sauce to being successful or reaching any goal’ – that message really hit home when I was in Vegas. Too often we give up when we don’t see results as soon as we would like. Too often we quit when were close to the gold. Consistency helps that huge mountain ( often known as dreams, goals) look like small bumps on a pavement road by breaking goals into daily habits and focusing not only on the destination but the person you will be when you get there.

Consistency - Creativ Junkie

 

What was the highlight of your April month?

 

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